This morning I read an article posted by Science and Nonduality, “Stop Trying to Solve Problems” by David Rock who has been researching what happens during the “moment ” of insight. Neuroscientists have found that complex problems are usually solved during the brain’s “downtime” not during vigorous activity. My own experience confirms that when I stop thinking about a problem for even a few minutes, consciousness continues to sort out data without my interference and suddenly the solution comes to light.
A constant thread in nonduality literature is that the mind is not the tool for perceiving the Absolute reality.
I agree that searching for Truth with the mind can be fun, interesting and exciting because of never ending concepts to explore. But maybe the Absolute reality is not to be explored anywhere but is always here waiting for the mind’s “downtime” in order to be discovered. If the answer is always here…where am I?
I recently went through some old spiritual books and found a small dog-eared booklet of daily meditations by Roy Eugene Davis, a disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda. Today I have a different understanding of the words than I did twenty years ago. Something has changed and I understand it differently.
Here’s an excerpt of one of the daily meditations:
“It is a mistake to believe in two powers, a good force and an evil force. There is only one Power in the universe but, because of its expression as differing frequencies, man often tends to believe in a power in opposition to God……Seen from the overview, the one Power is doing what It has always intended to do……” ~Roy Eugene Davis
Over the last twenty years I held the belief that I existed as a separate part of that one Power and read the above with an understanding similar to a child/parent relationship, being part of something but still separate. That seemed perfectly logical and comforting to me until this summer.
I had been reading modern nonduality authors and then stumbled upon Liberation Unleashed, a site where guides lead willing people to realize there is no personal “me” or “I”. They are relentless in their mission to dissolve the concept of a separate self. I haven’t joined this group but reading the journey of others created a shift in perception that cannot be undone now.
For me it has helped to change the language that I used in the past. I notice that whenever God is used as in the excerpt above, I fall back into the perception of me being a fragment of something bigger. When I use the word One or Absolute, I don’t hold on to that separation concept.
I thought I was comfortable as a separate self seeking to unite with a vast one Power….Now there is no Power to look “up” to or “find”….I am that Power.
I guess I’ll never read my old favorite spiritual books in the same way again. Nonduality…where are you taking “me”?
A big stumbling block comes up when looking deeply into the notion of the “law” of cause and effect, for every action there is a reaction, manifest your own reality, do unto others, etc….all of those spiritual and religious beliefs.
Even briefly thinking about giving up these concepts creates a scared feeling, like having my safety net pulled out from under me. These concepts have been the rules of the road for me for years and seem very logical and make life seem more fair.
If cause and effect is the law of the universe, there must be a lot of exceptions to the rule and maybe this is where the questions and seeking come into play.
I’m on the edge of this realization and don’t know if I want to take the plunge or not…….nonduality, you’re killing “me” here.
Synchronicity never ceases to amaze me. This morning I was randomly looking through highlights I had made in a Kindle book and made a mental note of an excerpt that I liked and would contemplate on today.
I have the same book in hardback so I picked it up, randomly thumbed through the pages and landed on the same two sentences that I had just read on the Kindle. Now this book is about 444 pages so I don’t know what the odds would be of finding the same two sentences but my guess is….pretty slim.
I love it when that happens. It confirms that “I” may not be running the show afterall?
I don’t know that it’s possible for a lifelong seeker to retire from seeking. I continue to read something inspiring (to me) almost daily. It’s almost like an addiction. At least I have narrowed down the Search nowadays. I’ve narrowed it down to nonduality writers, who are the ones who talk about ending the seeking but then write the books so you can continue the Search.
So I have come to realize that the Search may not continue in the same way for me. I no longer have a conceptualized path that I am continually trying to work my way “up” by accumulating knowledge from every sage (ancient and current) who claim to know the way. Instead, the Search has taken a different form.
There may be no path, no particular sage and no hidden knowledge to search for and that is the end of the traditional Search that is referred to in the nondual writings. However, another Search has started now (if it can be called a Search) and that is the understanding of direct experience. That would be to stop seeking through second-hand experiences and begin to look for my own direct experience. At this point, though, my direct experience doesn’t seem at all as interesting or as magical as the people who write about their awakening experiences.