I’ve only been blogging for a year and not very consistently. Inspiration to write ebbs and flows for me. I just reviewed all of the blogs I’ve done and most relate to my journey down the nonduality path. I just completed the Liberation Unleashed process where the only goal is to help with the realization that there is no personal self….that’s it…nothing else. All other spiritual beliefs and concepts are put away temporarily so that the focus is only on direct experience.
There is only one person outside of the blogosphere who knows of my spiritual journey and that I am involved in the LU process. Not that I want it to be kept secret…exactly the opposite. I am excited to share my insights but I honestly don’t know where to begin the discussion with anyone who has never heard of the no self concept. My knowledge of it has progressed over the years going from one path to the next and the different concepts all linked up together at some point.
I remember when I first became aware of the no self philosophy…it felt uncomfortable. I felt more comfortable keeping the personal self in a separate compartment I called the ego, small self, lower self or a “little me” in the background not to be confused with “my higher self” hanging out somewhere above my head. There seemed to be two parts of me each taking turns being in charge.
Realizing that the little me in the background doesn’t exist and never has existed takes some honest looking. Maybe for some it’s a spiritual awakening happening in a flash but for me it has been a slow process that started two years ago backed up by 25 years of spiritual seeking.
I still don’t know if any awakening happened….I have no expectations of enlightenment….realization is a better word I suppose. Nothing really changes….just a clearer lens to look through.
9 responses to “Cleaning the Lens…”
There is such a value in the honest sharing. Thank you for this. The lens does seem clearer, every moment: subtle change in one sense, profound in another.
Thanks for reading. I agree subtle yet profound!
Good to hear from you again! And thanks for sharing your experience. I’ve been studying the Theravadin ‘no-self’ (anatta) teaching for a some years and have come to accept that we just live with the ‘personal self’ and what it does is keep the whole mind/body organism going along – no more than that. Now I see from what you’re saying that even that is a form of holding on to it – surprise, surprise, it’s actually not there at all…
Thanks for the comment. Yes, it appears as if the personal self keeps things going and it is surprising to consider that maybe it doesn’t exist at all. I’m going to read about the anatta teaching…interesting.
Although my main teacher is Rupert Spira, I too went through the LU process. Have you ever watched some of Rupert’s videos on youtube? He is amazingly clear. Next Monday I begin my fifth 7 day retreat with him in person.
I love Rupert! So lucky you have been able to be involved with him personally. I have read his books and videos too. Did you think the LU process was helpful?
Have you read The Path of the Masters by Julian Johsnon?
No I haven’t but your comment lead me to look at his history and book, as well as his master Sawan Singh. Sounds right up my alley! Thanks for commenting.
Just to let you know I’ve nominated you for a Leibster Award. Should you choose to accept it, the details are in my latest post, but if not, that’s okay too. 🙂